Finally!

I'm finally starting to be ok with the way things are yes I still suck at being alone but somehow I have managed to find a simple small kind of happiness that keeps me going, I think things will look up more soon what with school starting and what not.
it's still hard to see his face he likes to pretend it never happened, we were never together a sad attempt to forget and be happy at best I know he still hurts like I do he can't hide it from me, I've tried everything to replace him or be mad at him but I can't it doesn't work I still love him more than I should I can't help it he is the only one I've ever comes so close to spending forever with for some reason unknown to me he still holds part of me the most important part of me my heart! And by damn I want it back only then can I totally be ok.